Hello everyone and happy new year. Over the past few days I tried to draw on paper again after a very, very, very long time. After I finished the sketch some of my friends suggested (forced) me to colour it in which I NEVER do but I decided I might as well try to and here is the result. Continue reading “Drawing after 8 months”
Over the past few months there have been a lot of different things happening in my life. Good, bad, meh, all sorts. I’ve been quite busy with a lot of different things as well, I’ve been going outside quite a bit and taking many photos which has helped me cope a bit better with stress and emotional stuff. My exams went fine, didn’t fail any and did decent to good in all of them. I’ve also decided on a bunch of different things which I’m going to try my hardest to focus on (I know I say that a lot without producing much of anything but I really do try push myself).
So for starters, my motivation is still non-existent, or at least so abysmal that it doesn’t have an affect. However, recently I managed to get over a girl I was infatuated by for the past 2 years which is awesome. My motivation will hopefully start building up now which will be great because of how much bloody year 12 holiday homework I have to finish.
With all the different creative mediums I want to do, I’ve decided I’ll focus on certain ones right now rather than try do all of them at once. I’ve decided I’ll focus on Continue reading “A lot has been happening…”
A blank page is pretty menacing. But I don’t know what’s worse, sitting here and not writing anything, or writing something only to give up on it because I’m really insecure about writing what I actually want to write.
(Cat picture at the end)
It’s amazing how one short sentence can make someone feel so unmotivated.
It’s also amazing that motivation and discouragement can sometimes lead to the same result.
But what’s more amazing is how encouragement can result in becoming discouraged.
I’ve been really unmotivated lately thanks to homework, but it’s not necessarily the homework in general. Continue reading “Motivated to be unmotivated.”
Hello everyone who takes time out of their life to read the shit I post here.
I have spent the past hour or so looking at different ways to record xbox footage. I have found quite a lot of useful information… Underneath the Continue reading “Tiny tiny..”
Youtube, school, writing, etc. (Update)
On the first of February, I started year 11. Before I even started year 11 though I had to essentially write 3 different essays/assignments (well, that’s how it felt). I DID manage it… eventually… My computer was re-imaged on Thursday and I have been busy copying shit off my hard drive to be able to do my school work and write again.
I have a few issues with youtube that I will have to continually deal with.
First one being that my videos take ages to upload. This is (obviously) because of how little upload speed I have, .7 megabits which is not even a tenth of a megabyte. Only way to solve this at all is to either upload at night or when I am at school.
Second issue I have is that I can’t get video editing software on my school laptop which means I need to use a different computer if I want to edit anything. The laptop I can use is my brothers and he has a bit of a habit of wanting to be on it when I am motivated to use it. Hopefully I’ll be able to build a PC sometime soonish.
Finally, I don’t have a recording software on my laptop nor do I have a capture card on my xbox, so the only way for me to get footage is to record using the xboxDVR or an external camera, and lets face it, the quality of that is horrid. An external camera is the only way I can record mic without trying to record audio on another device then try and fit together. If anyone knows of any way to record party audio on the XboxOne please let me know, it would be extremely appreciated.
Oh god this is already longer than I thought it would be
Despite all this I will be trying hardish to get videos out there.
I have decided to try expand my content to all sorts of things I enjoy doing. Discussing my opinion on different things, regular gaming, and now analysis of the intros of different animes I have watched.
I may change my content in the future.
From the looks of it thus far, school is going to be a little bit of a bag of dicks, here’s why.
For every lesson I have on Psychology I have to read/watch these videos and pages then write notes on it all, prior to the lesson. I have 3 lessons every week so I am writing around a page of notes each week while also adding words to a glossary. On top of this I have a few students in my grade that I dislike quite a bit and my teacher seems very set in her ways.
For Maths there is a chance that I will get a lot of homework but that might also depend on what I finish in class. Hopefully I won’t get any homework apart from stuff I didn’t finish during class. If I keep a neat ‘cheat book’ for exams I won’t need to study too much as well. My class is very noisy which could be problematic.
With Media I will have quite a few assignments, I’m going to assume a lot of analysis, and I think there is one where you choose between a short film or a poster. My teacher seems pretty good and my class is alright at least.
In IT I have to keep a site running and change it overtime in order to pass which will be a bit of a pain. Thanks to my prior knowledge in coding from randomly reading code and then also doing lots of coding in minecraft I am learning HTML, CSS and java coding quite quickly which is good.
With Philosophy it should be quite easy going, just need to make sure I remember stuff for the exams and write down all the notes I need to in class.
English will be difficult as there are lots of assignments, exams, essays, oral presentations etc and if I fail English I will have to repeat. My class seems decent at least.
Finally, social aspects of school will probably be interesting as I have been posting links to any videos or posts I put up on here or youtube to my facebook which has maybe 90% of the students in my year level. I also want to write and draw more often which means I need to take time out of something and right now, the only thing that I can cut back on is gaming since I can’t take random days off school nor can I not do homework or sleep.
With my writing, I really want to improve and write as much as I can, I love writing opinion stuff because it allows me to prove to myself how well I actually can analyse different aspects of peoples lives and also see how my opinion evolves overtime. I love arguments/discussions because it allows me to hear different opinions which then lets me analyse my own again and be able to improve it.
The thing I would really enjoy doing is create and express a story to people, that’s why I enjoy writing short stories so much. I want to get better at drawing so I can create comics/mangas.
The comic that I started last year I may try continuing at some point but I will not be using colour as it takes twice as long to get the right shade just to realize I don’t like it.
Well since it’s summer I’m going to be even less motivated to do much of anything. My grandpa died quite recently so on Sunday we dropped off my mum at the airport because she is going to South Africa for the week. Feel a bit traumatized from the holiday homewrok still. I pre-ordered Halo Wars 2 the other day after playing the blitz beta. I’m going to try get into reading a chapter of a book every week or so. I’m incapable of streaming as my internet is too shit which is pretty annoying. I’ve started trying to teach myself guitar and I’ve gotten pretty decent.
Despite the difficulties and stresses of school and life I am sure I will be able to get through.
Now I know that there are absolute shit tons of students that hate school and wonder why it exists in the first place. Then there are students that go to school and are pretty neutral when it comes to it. And there are also students that are geniuses and love school. Then there’s me.
I actually like going to school and experiencing all these different things such as all the different kinds of relationships and all the different types of people that you meet. But you can also experience these things out of school right? Well yea, but for me personally, I would rather go to school and talk to someone I’ve seen around before or been forced to talk to due to them being a teacher or being put into a group with someone than walk up to a random stranger and try spike a conversation. That’s another reason I like the internet so much, you can communicate with someone thousands of kilometers away without having to make them feel uncomfortable (well I guess that depends on the site/game and situation).
Another reason that I enjoy school is that I get to (usually) learn something new, be it a new way to solve a problem, a new formula in Maths or just the meaning of a word in English. I actually saw a video ages ago and at some part of it, the guy said that school is the way to pass down information to each generation in order to advance us all as a whole. Not a lot of people care about knowing ‘useless information’ but the more you know the easier it is for you to learn more.
Kinda don’t want to add this reason in but I feel the need to. If I didn’t have to go to school, a job, anywhere outside then I wouldn’t and don’t unless I feel a need to. My only need to go outside when I am on school holidays is either family related, my friends have organised something or I need to briefly lay outside to clear my head so I can properly focus. When school is on I do actually enjoy going because I have a reason to be outside.
And now finally, the reason I don’t want school to finish. When school finishes I will have a lot more time which either means I’ll start binge playing video games or be bored. But since the end of school is inevitable I will have to become mature enough to not waste all my time just sitting on my chair playing games and get a part time job for maybe an hour a day while I try and get something published and hopefully be at the stage where I can get some amount of money off of my site.
I’ll of grown up, which I think is the real reason I don’t want school to end.